Chapter 9 What’s next?

Lest we forget that with all this life and death drama, the cancer still remains. More importantly, it remains untreated. When last we looked at it in March, the tumors were stable, no new tumors and the two known tumors had not grown. This is good news. But what can we do about this?
I am not a candidate for any more treatment. There will not be any chemo or immunotherapy treatments. My body will not tolerate it and I have been through enough. No part of me wants to temp the hands of death a second time.
From what I am told, the only treatment for this now is surgery to remove the tail end of my pancreas and my spleen, taking the two tumors with it. If you recall, this was the original plan oh so long ago but was postponed first for me to lose weight (did that!) and then because the cancer had spread.
Currently, I am not a candidate for surgery because of the myocarditis heart condition. This is a difficult surgery for someone who has no issues…it’s borderline dangerous for me at this time. So we wait.


I have an MRI and a CT scan scheduled for June to check on the status of these tumors and can only hope there has been no change. I can also hope that the myocarditis settles down and I am in a better physical place soon to be able to survive the surgery.

And lets face it…I’m not sure how well I can manage another roommate for days on end!